The Child Within

The child within is our inner sense and our innocence that remains unpolluted by the residue of unfavorable experience.

As she stood at the edge of the stage her eyes glanced over the crowd as if she was seeking the approval of someone before she continued her performance. The events of her life seemed to all build up to this very moment as past events flashed before her eyes like a movie that only she could see. The familiar voice of her mother encouraging her to do her best echoed inside of her head as she drifted further away from the moment. The angry sound of her father's voice soon followed as it always did. "Comedy is not a job. Go make something valuable of yourself." His words were etched into her brain providing both a mental block and a stepping stone for success. She silently resented him more than he will ever know. Her desire for his support for years held more weight than her own convictions. As a child she was always good spirited and attention hungry. She would captivate the room with her jokes and her contagious laugh. Her energy seemed to have a disagreeable effect upon her fathers serious and melancholy nature. For him success could only be achieved through hard labour. His attitude was very stern and overbearing as his presence brought an invisible storm cloud wherever he went. As she got older she began to take her comedy more serious and she made a firm decision to grace the world with her joyous spirt through her jokes, natural charm and wit. She concealed this goal from her father expecting his disapproval as she continued to go through the motions of the college experience eventually dropping out to do stand up at the local night scene. She spent hours watching her favorite comedians and learning from each of them to perfect her craft. Her routine improved and she received a warm welcome as she followed the positive reputation she created for herself. This night was however different as it was the anniversary of  her fathers death which happened to fall on the night of her biggest performance to date. At each venue she would scan the crowd with her eyes before her performance anticipating his arrival while knowing deep inside that he would never be there. This night however was different as anxiety began to grip her tighter than she held the microphone in her left hand. This was her first televised performance and she was extremely nervous. Suddenly a sense of reassurance washed over her like a cool breeze. She could feel her father watching even in death and for once he was pleased by her achievement. This thought brought her great comfort as she proceeded to give the best performance of her life. Later that night she sat with her proud mother who told her that her father had a difficult life. "Your father was very bitter and held strong resentment towards the circumstances of his life in an unforgiving society. He felt that since he had to work from a young age to survive and take care of a large family that everyone should do the same. He once had dreams of being a famous guitarist, you know." her mother told her with a nostalgic smile as she reminisced on better times with the man she loved. "The conditions of his life did not permit him to follow his goals and so his lack of encouragement towards you were based in his fears of your failure. He never wanted you to feel like he did and I used to tell him that you were different. Before he passed he smiled at told me he was so proud of you for sticking to your aspirations." she said in a loving tone.
 The inner child is the purity within us all. It is the sincerity and innocence in a child's eyes that trusts unconditionally. It is the look of adventure and exploration with each new discovery of this fascinating world. It is the part of us that we must always protect and never deny. Our inner child loves to have fun and enjoy learning new things. It seeks attention for our gifts to nurture our ability to express what we have been blessed with. Our sense of true love and creativity is located in the heart of our inner child. Often in childhood we are faced with sudden events that may traumatize us since we do not understand what has happened or why it has occurred. This creates psychological barriers and doors in our subconscious that we keep locked hoping to never be reminded of what has transpired in fear of reliving the experience. These hidden fears are often triggered by people, places and events that remind us of something that has scarred the child within us. The longer these wounds go untreated the more difficult it becomes to function properly as adults. Those who have a healthy inner child move forward with a positive attitude and continue hoping for the best while the unhealthy inner child is left coping with the rest. By not removing these blockages and dealing with these issues we begin to deny that they exist. We become the cold hardened disciplinarian that we once regarded as strict and boring. In time we begin to lose the vibrant life force that keeps us living, loving and learning. In time we begin to suppress our natural desire to enjoy life as we succumb solely to our responsibilities and daily routines. The inner child begins to cry out within us and we respond back in our own minds like the strict parent telling them to wait and denying their genuine needs. The way we deal with our inner child directly impacts our vision for the future for it is the child who sees no limits and boundaries. It is the child who colors outside of the lines of society. The inner child is the true revolutionary constantly transforming through innovative ideas and new ways of seeing ourselves and our world. It is important to identify the nature of your inner child and give them what they need from your inherent masculine and feminine energy. The inner child needs discipline but not at the price of encouragement. It needs to be nurtured and loved as well as enlightened and guided. Find where your inner child is hiding and set it free by facing past events that it may be trapped in. It is also important to be able to identify the child within others. Often what is perceived as an attack from others is their way of defending the child inside of them. Once you heal this part of you find out the interests and gifts of your inner child and you will discover the purpose of your life's journey. Carrying the inner child through the ups and downs of life is like walking around the world holding a candle that you cannot allow to burn out. The inner child is your olympic torch passed down from the sun to deliver the fire of your passion as a gift to humanity. Hold it high and keep it burning as bright as you can.

Kalik Scientific